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Verse
Mungkin kau tak tahu
Ku tak seperti dulu
Selama bersama
Ku bukan dicinta tapi diperguna
Hanya sia-sia

Chorus
Apa ku kisah
Kau mainkan rasa
Kau punca segala
Kau takkan berubah
Apa ku kisah
Kini ku berdiri
Rela ku sendiri
Tak lagi peduli
Apa ku kisah
Akan tiba satu masa
Kau akan terkena
Apa ku kisah
Apa ku kisah
Apa apa ku kisah
Apa ku kisah apa ku kisah

Dulu ku memang naïf
Sekarang dah naik tarif
Keinsananmu hilang
Janji langsung tak pegang
Aku tak kisah sama siapa engkau bersama
Kau umpama musuhku untuk sekian lama

Kepala pusing
Pusing tidak menentu
Aku bosan caramu
Buatku bercelaru
Orang suka kata-kata yang dusta
Sebelum kau jadi ratu
Baikku jaga (ka-ching) di saku

Ulang Verse
Ulang Chorus

Tak kisah tak peduli
Di sana kau berdiri
Rasa resah gelisah
Kerana ku tak peduli
Dengan segala kata janji
Yang tak mungkin terjadi
Tak mungkin terjadi

Hanya kepadamu
Tinggal harapan kasih
Buat diri ini
Kembali berasmara

hari ni, aku rasa macam nak ape je.... semua bende tak jadi... takkan nak kena berkorban lg? adduuiii....

breakfast pg ni roti 2keping je. my mum tak masak. takpela..niat aku bukan nak bukak offis pun...nak tutup, n g breakfast kat temerloh. bagaikan petanda bahawa aku tak boleh berbuat sedemikian, dapat 1 sms. sibuk. so takpela. sampai ofis. terus buat keje yg tak siap. ahha! dah lunch time.... bersiap nak kuar makan...

F**K! wallet aku....tertinggal rupanya... mak aih...nak puasa, haram.... masuk balik dlm office... terpaksa berlapar... dahla hati sakit... lapar plak tu...nak tahan sampai bila?

apa nak jadi la dgn aku ni....

rasanya belum terlambat untuk aku wish selmat hari raya aidil adha kepada seluruh umat islam yang menyambutnya.

secara peribadi, aku tidak merasakan kemeriahan sambutannya semalam. mungkin sbb aku skrg dah malas dalam membuat segala bende.. atau mungkin semangat korban yg disalah ertikan. dengan mood2 aku sekali dikorbankan...

K.O.R.B.A.N....ape maksud korban pada anda? adakah mereka yg ada bahagian dalam sembelih lembu tu je yg dianggap melakukan korban? tidak....mendengar tazkirah yg disampaikan oleh Prof Izzy dalam sudut refleksi Hot FM kelmarin, korban ni, bukan sahaja mereka yg ada bahagian dalam lembu tu, tapi org yg tolong terlibat menumbangkan lembu juga dikira berkorban. melapah. menjayakan program korban, dianggap berkorban. yg tak beli lembu, tapi nak kawasan rumahnya menjadi tmpt sembelih, juga dianggap berkorban.. indahnya Islam....

pagi2 raya, aku terus mandi dan bersiap. memakai pakaian raya aidilfitri tahun ni. tak sempat nak breakfast. sedangkan sunat utk makan dahulu seblum g solat raya. berbekalkan kemalasan dijiwa, aku ke surau paling sejuk di malaysia ni. SURAU TAMAN DESA JAYA. tak percaya? dtgla solat sendiri ke surau ni... sampai je kat surau..mcm biasa la..aku remaja pertama yg ada kat sana. selesai solat dan jamuan, aku balik ke rumah. tukar baju. dan ke surau semula. tapi agak lambat sbb aku tak leh tgk lembu tu disembelih, nnt aku takleh makan daging dia..

aku sampai masa tu ada 2/5ekor lgi tak sembelih...diorg tgh sembelih lembu ke 4. aku dah cuak dah...aku terus bg focus kat lembu kumpulan aku...tgk lembu terakhir dah tercungap2. cuak mcm aku jg. tp dia sah2 kena sembelih. aku takkan kena.. hahaha tahun lepas aku bahagian ikat plastik daging. tahun ni, upgrade sket...aku bahagian timbang.hoho... kumpulan aku dpt 60kg daging. tak termasuk tulang dan organ dalaman.

aku wakilkan kakak aku, amik bahagian dia. then terus balik.tak dtg amik bahagian aku buat keje. sbb... kita dtg sana bukan nak dpt bnyk daging...tp nak beribadah..tul tak?

balik2 tu, aku tak kuar beraya. mungkin sbb aku malas. atau mungkin ada sebab lain yg berada jauuuhhhh dalam sudut hati aku yg aku sendiri tak dapat ungkap kan. mungkin sbb ia bercantum2 permasalahan nye menyebabkan aku jadi lebih malas... atau... ada sebab yg lebih specifik? wallahu alam...aku dok layan tv je sampai ptg...

gmbr abg aku amik. sbb aku nak amik, tak de kamera...tunggula bila aku dah dpt gmbr tu, aku upload...

Muzik-muzik malam ni agak best dan mencapai piawaian muzik2 malaysia sbenar..cuma ada sket yg terloncat2 tu yg tak patt...

black is the best tonite..n aizat too...tone yg diubahsuai dalam beberapa note, membuatkan aku lupa skjp kesakitan aku...dan sempat meremang bulu roma ku...bulu roma je...jgn pk lain...

sebelum tdo, niat nak download semua 30 lagu yg berentap di separuh akhir ni..tp kesakitan tidak mengizinkan...tp, knp blog boleh tulis? sape takde kat tepi aku...jgn banyak soal... baca je ape yg aku tulis...

tp video ni, membuatkan aku rindu padanya..sape? Rasulullah la... korang tak rindu?

p/s : tentiba air mata aku berderai..tak tahu sebab ape.........

semalam dapat tdo jam 4pg. bangun subuh, mata merah. lepas subuh, breakfast dgn parent. tak dapat tdo. sambung layan movie. tp tak tahu cite ape...

dah 2 hari sakit belakang. hari ni sakit lama aku datang semula. sesak nafas n rusuk kiri. tp gagahkan diri ikut abah aku g surau. n makan masakan mummy aku. ikutkan, tak dapat nak makan, sbb sakit sangat. nak ngadu, nnt kena laser.. so pendam. masuk bilik, menahan kesakitan. pgg skjp je hp, untuk hntr report. tp warden tak reply. ;o(

knp aku buat entry lirik lagu akon ni? masa aku buka PC...aku terjumpa 1 link lagu akon. aku pun buka.. erm... petepettt!!! sebiji kena kat muka aku...bende ape?lirik dia... terus aku terkenang kesalahan yg pernah aku lakukan... mungkin ini balasannya... aku terima...

tak lengkap kalau lagu itu saja... ia mesti dihadiri sama dgn lagu, SBIOM... igtkan aku akan tak suka dah pada lagu akon.... rupanya, layan semula..

aku gagahi buka laptop utk aku memuntahkan sesuatu yg ada dalam bdan aku ni..sakit2 pun aku terpaksa buat...nak guasa, urut diri sndr..tak lepas...tak sampai tgn beb....bila nak sampai...ntah la...yg sampai, tgn ke lappy aku ni jer...

ada 1 lg lagu..bertema kan nasyid....jap lagi aku pos entry baru...

p/s 1 : rasa macam nak g keje sok....dok rumah takde buat ape pun..sakit hati je...
p/s 2 : tak reti nak komen? ape guna aku buat shout box kat tepi tu...kn?

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my own
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my own
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my players out there ya know got that one good girl who's always been there like ya
Know took all the bullshit then one day she can't take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreaming, for her I was
Feenin, so I had to take a little ride, back tracking over these few years, tryna figure out what I do to make it go bad, cause
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashing

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

Can't believe I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you through you still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cause without you in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't never met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you
Cause ain't nowhere in the globe I'd rather be, ain't no-one in the globe I'd rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

Never thought that I'd be alone, I didn't think you'd be gone this long, I just want you to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished I'd ever
Hurt my baby, and it's driving me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
For my own (to call my own) girl

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

dah jam 230pg...aku masih tak dapat lelapkan mata.... td nak tdo dah...skali, golek sini golek sana...takleh tdo..mata terbuka jg..

buka laptop semula...nah! nak luahkan pasal perangai org skrg...mmg menyakitkan hati..kalau tak percaya cakap org..gosip2....mmg tak sah...sakitnya hati aku.....

cubala berfikir atau siasat sebelum bertindak melulu....takde la sakit hati sangat...

kot ye pun kita ada masalah tersendiri...kita tak leh jdkan itu sebagai alasan tuk bertindak diluar kawalan kita.... kita kena pk baik buruk setiap langkah kita...

ini tidak...br baca atau dgr dr 1 pihak....terus nak bertindak melulu...

p/s : sakit hati....+ sakit pinggang yg makin menjadi2....nasib baik dah ada air kat rumah aku ni..kalau tak, kena angkat berbaldi2 lg..nak raya plak tu..sakit pinggang...arrgghghhhh